The new year came in, and I was in my bed by myself watching YouTube. I actually had no idea that 2019 came in until my mother called me screaming Happy New Year. The moment was far from happy, but I had to put that aside, dry my eyes and pretend I was happy to not hurt my mom.

I didn’t expect to bring in the new year like that. I actually wanted to turn up and get lit, but I wasn’t feeling well. In that moment, when I was sitting in my bed alone, I realized maybe this is how it should be. My 2019 needs to be about self. I need to focus on myself and my goals without distraction.

I don’t know if that means I have to be selfish with who I spend my time with and how I spend my time or what? I don’t want to be THAT person who neglects other people so I have to be careful with this.

Right now, I’m just taking it one step at a time. I’m doing my own thing and living for ME. I would never wish anyone to bring in the new year by themselves, especially if they have friends and family who say they love them. I guess this was just a lesson for me that in the end. I’m all I have.

Happy New Year to all of my readers!  

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